Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Rant... about love and stuff.

Well, in Creative Writing, Mrs. M talks a lot about love.
Yesterday, we were asked to make a comparison for the word "kiss."
I couldn't do it- I don't know what a kiss is like.
It brought me to the realization that I've never had a boyfriend.
It's a bit pathetic- after all, I'm already in 11th grade.
It's not that I don't want one.
But, honestly, no one likes me like that.
I don't think I'll ever have one, at least not in high school.
I've never even hugged or held hands with someone,
let alone kissed someone. (Kissing my cousin when I was 5 doesn't count!)
All around, I see people walking the halls as couples.
They hold hands, they hug, they whisper to each other.
Love.. it sounds so nice, to love someone,
especially when they love you back.
I wish I was loved by someone.
I wish someone could be there when I'm down,
to give me a hug and say "it's okay."
I wish there was someone in my life who would say "I love you."
I just want someone to care about me.
Someone I can hold hands with,
someone I'm not nervous around...
Someone that I can hug.
I can imagine it; it seems wonderful.
I wonder who the person will be, if I ever get a boyfriend.
You know, it really sucks, not having anyone love you.
It feels like there's a major part of life that you're missing out on.
Something that you can never have,
but that everyone else has.
I want that, too.
I want to be loved...

4 comments:

  1. I feel the same way. I've never had a boyfriend (one date does NOT count) and I've never been kissed.
    But, there is hope in college, with mature guys who care more about how much a girl knows instead of how much makeup she wears.

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  2. I totally understand how you feel. I've never had a actually functional realtionship or with someone who likes me for me
    . Right now, I'm in a very complicated relationship and it's very hard. But I totally understnad how you feel.

    your not alone :]

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  3. So I read your post on Mrs. Morrison's blog. I love, love, love archery, but I never know where I can go to do it. I'm not very good though. I take German too. I love it. Frau Krystek/ Hanely is pretty awesome. I want to take it in college, and maybe even minor in it. I don't know where a german minor will get me in life though. About your post on your blog, I didn't have a boyfriend until last year(my junior year). I felt the same way you do. I just couldn't undertsand why when I looked around there were bitchy, mean, snobby girls with boyfriends, and yet I was nice and sweet and I didn't have one. I finally stopped looking for a boyfriend. I realized that most boys in high school just aren't grown up yet. I was also way too busy for a boyfriend and I was happy with myself and my friends. Then one found me. His name is Drew and he goes to norht. We started going out October 5th last year, so Sunday is our one year anniversary. Moral of the story, there are no guys at south that are hot enough and mature enough for you so don't get upset about it cause you deserve better, and better will find you.

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  4. Hey Larissa! Everytime I'm logged in to blogger I like to check out whats new on your blogs. I enjoyed reading "rant...ablout love and stuff" I can totally understand where your coming from. I also love checking up on Todd and Kate. The characters are so cute and they get into such funny situations. I can't wait to see what you think up next!
    from your blogging pal,
    Bitzy

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